This has been an okay week so far, nothing interesting in my life. Last night I went to the school for play rehearsal, the dance scene. I felt so wrong, like no one would ever want to be partnered with me. I just felt so left out, shouldn't I have fun too? I have a fear of growing up, and missing this. As of right now my youth is not much fun. What if things don't get better ... I want to belong, to anything. To go somewhere and not just have to shut myself up. I want to be able to let loose, like everyone else? Why don't I get to? I am entitled to these emotions, I am entitled to good memories ... so why does it seem like my best memories will remain. I am thirteen and my life is already not as happy as my past, this isn't how I planned ... but nothing is.
- Laura Leigh
Dear God I was dramatic. At thirteen years old I didn't really have much of a past. Ugh, you couldn't pay me enough to ever relive those years again. How painfully awkward it is to grow up.
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Theres nothing fun about being 13.
ReplyDeleteBeing 13 sucks, as does most of adolescence. You got your wish though Laura you have wonderful friends who you can be yourself around :)
ReplyDeleteI almost teared up, how ridiculous, glad we didn't know each other then cause let me tell you, I let loose on the 4 Square Court.
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